my love for you my dear .. first

God ..
I loved him sincerely, I loved him sincerely, and I want to have it because I know heloves me ..
God ..
but why do not you let me with him? be on his side? I want to repeat the good timeswith him as long ago .. I want to hug him when he fell? but why do you keep him awayfrom me now? what is my fault, why did you let him out of my life .. Can I repeat the good times with him? My Lord may I have it back .. Let me go back with him? I praythe Lord .. just this once :'(
if not you allow me with him, please discard this feeling of love and affection to himnow! I'm getting tortured if like this .. I ask God :'( throw my love ..